Sometimes you might wondered if you are doing the right thing…because some things you will never know unless you tried. The feeling is actually better if you never tried and regret! Even though you regretted doing it.
For me, I think I am a scardy cat that’s why I always chose the safe side - to regret not doing it. -inserts sad face-
Just me being me? No big deal?but hell nooooooo. Such irony haha
I am trying to find words to fill in the cold empty space. But I can’t. I don’t even know feelings I am having now - happysademptydisappointed? Mixed feelings are always >:/!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don’t know myself anymore. I don’t know what to do. Sometimes I really hate myself.
Low self esteem? Ah J always kept saying you have low self esteem blahblahblah you need to have confidence in yourself blahblahblah.
“Okay how much does confidence cost?” HAHAHAHAHA
WHERE CAN I FIND CONFIDENCE WHERE WEHRE WHERE!!!!! Actually I know myself…I think people knows where they stand?
You know I had fast food for lunch and dinner today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am going to die of fatness. Oh man :( Omg omg no one will want me, sniffsniff.
If you think you know that person well enough, think again, because sometimes you do not even have the courage to say you know yourself completely.
Everything is just a lie, isn’t it? Reality might be a lie too. Because what we were taught since young might not true either. What if pretty is ugly, and ugly is pretty instead? So do we have to go for plastic surgery to disfigure oursleves? What if fat is skinny and skinny is fat? Do we have to eat 100 bowls of rice just to be “skinny”?
Everything makes me wonder. Maybe I am a lie myself too.
As you grow up, you will be more cautious of your surroundings…the people and what is happening around you. I used to trust everyone wholeheartedly but now I found out sometimes it isn’t this way.
I rather keep all the secrets to myself rather than telling all the people I think who I can trust…but in the end who will lose out?
I remembered reading from somewhere…if it is a secret, don’t bother telling to anyone not even your closer friends. Because they will think they since it is possible for you to tell them…even if they leaked out it is never their fault but yours. I found it really true. Not pin pointing at whoever, just a thought of my own.